BEING 18

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Sometimes I wonder if this is what life is really like at the age of 18. A life feeling so numb, so lost, so sad, and so lonely. As a kid, I always thought 18 must be so fun, but rather it's only filled with academic pressure, parent's expectations, peer pressure, insecurity, and society's pressure. None of which I have the strength to overcome. I wonder if that's alright. What if this is just a taste of adulthood?

It's sad how I cannot be the girl my childhood self always dreamt of being. I question if being 18 and being immature is fine. A lot of time has passed by, and a lot of myself I've lost too. Now I'm left only with a sorrowful soul wishing to retrieve back her lost self. This has only been a game of losing myself to this cruel world. Yes, 'cruel world' that has left me with no hope for the future and survival. As life moved on, I lost interest in everything and I'm honestly jealous of people who get a reason to smile and laugh. What am I running for in this life? What am I up to? I don't know. Is that fine? I'm full of watering eyes and weary sighs looking back at my own life. Why can't someone tell me that it's fine to take it slow and to feel this way is okay? After all, I'm just a girl in the world.

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  1. Anonymous26 January 2025 at 20:38

    Heyyyy girlll we all got your back dw

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  2. Krishna26 January 2025 at 23:32

    "It's okay to feel this way"—you're not alone. Life at 18 might leave you in a daze, but you don’t have to have everything figured out right now. You’re still growing, still learning, and it’s okay to take things slow. Your childhood dreams aren’t lost—they’re just waiting for you to find yourself again. Be kind to yourself, because even in this cruel world, you deserve love, patience, and hope. Embrace it w your loving arms. Show this cruel world how kind you're. Follow your passion don't loose yourself for others.

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  3. Anonymous16 February 2025 at 03:59

    You haven't lost yourself - you are re-inventing yourself and evolving. Every moment of your life, you have the ability to make that new you more & more aligned with what you wish to become. And let me tell you, it is entirely normal to feel lost in your early adulthood. It's going to be this way for another decade. During this time, focus on building your skills, whichever ones interest you... And pick 5 small activities you love - applying kajal, watching the stars, making dosa for appa, it could be anything!- & enjoy them everyday. As they bring you joy, you'll see the world around you turning kinder.. sometimes what we see outside is clouded by what's running in our heads. Love & hugs 😘 - Gopika

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